Teams finally announced... I wont say i am disappointed but i am a bit depressed... For many reasons than 1... Supposedly a leader... but i fall back to the last place everytime i take 1 step forward..
Does this mean i should just give up... because no matter how hard u try... sometimes u just cant catch up with the things the pass u by so effortlessly.. It makes u seem and see the whole world as a place where we were made to just die sooner or later... W/e life doesnt seem fair most of the time but everytime i try to pick myself up when i fall i just drop down the wall...
I am "All by myself".
Team 1 : Willie, Loke Chor, Sai Mun, Kenneth Mah
Team 2 : Jerome, Jarvis , Justin , Anthony Wee
Team 3: Woon Siong, Gregory Tan, Max Chua... and u know who.
Seemingly i dont know what to say.. i just wanna shout it out but i am such a whimp anyway.
xoxo, Emo dude's dont feel pain... or do we ?
expressing the emptiness inside me..
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
6:02 PM
My life is a terrible misery.. Nothing in this world can stop me, I am going to leave without u noticing, When i walk out this door there is no turning back.
How i wonder if you care, Maybe you do but oh well.. Everyone hates me .. Life is but a terrible misery..
We were put on this earth to die, But i want to live.. Although there is nothing i can offer.. Or be offered.
Life is a terrible misery, Why were we born.. I am falling down this hill, You cant stop me. No one can.
It is MY life, but why does your presence affect me so, you can just go away, you are obsolete now.
I am falling...
xoxo, backstabber... hating
Watch out all those out there... someone... i know this,
expressing the emptiness inside me..
Saturday, February 23, 2008
2:16 PM
Yay today fun day :D .. but i bowled a bit weird the morning.. Thumb all stuck since my driller not in town..
Anyway i been looking forward 2 2dae because i can go out wid sammie and sam :D so happy... wanted to watch L but prolly no space.. Going out soon so i just thought id post something here :D Wow my positive attitude is really benefiting my life alot.. nvr felt better :D Except when i am with frens of cos haha. PeAcE oUt.. And i must thank elaina for being such a fan of american idol and help me "rmbr" the names haha..
expressing the emptiness inside me..
Friday, February 22, 2008
11:10 PM
OMG my com broke down and i havent posted for sooo uber long i feel so dead bloggered.
Anyway AMERICAN IDOL GOSSIP ~
I Love for the guyz... Danny!!! and DaVid!!! Double D's ( possibly... ***) Anyway i prefer the girls more :D I like asia'h omg she is the first name i actually rmbred omg in a long long time. i love the sound of her voice so sensual... I also like sYESha omg another person i actually rmbred... and i loved lastly CARLY SMITHSON I actually rmbred her last name meaning i love her the most OMG!! Owns !! I love AI...
OH gosh i haf no life... anyway its joyous to know there are people like elaina who enjoy it too haha :D
expressing the emptiness inside me..
Saturday, February 16, 2008
9:07 PM
Omg today was so fun :D ... In the morning training den den i went out wid K mah gregs woonie and adam at first :D We went to watch CJ7 omg its so funny but they all like... :( so i felt bad haha but nevermind they still were like okay wid me haha.
Then later we met bee yong and du yong :DD so fun then we went to watch another movie hahaha ... sadly greg n woonie nt there... :( but nvm :D. Kung Fu DUNK is tooooo unbelievable sia ! Jay chou can fly 10m nice... But the movie is nice when u r wid good ompany anyway :D... i rly wanan thank them hahaha
expressing the emptiness inside me..
Friday, February 15, 2008
7:54 PM
Sighz.... My whole body is in alot of pain as a result of ... well... over-training. My left leg is doomed !! I just hope tomorrow i can bowl because i haf to go training :(.
Anyway POSITIVE still!!... although some people are trying to break me down.. IT WILL NEVER WORK!... This is a blessing in disguise. God is trying to make me tougher thats all... When anyone else gets like leg pain hehehe i can LAUGH!... ( Saddist is still a happy person therefore positive).
Hey hey :D After my birthday i haf decided to go on a POSITIVE attitude on everything. Nothing can break me down !!
Today school was so fun. Although art was abit trying but it is a blessing still :D. I had such a nice chat with Harris about alot of stuff and i seem to know him better. YATA! My duty is to know everyone of my friends alot better this year because i think i lack some things... So i haf to make up for it all :D
POSITIVITY OWNS I CAN KEEP AT IT FOREVER!
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Friday, February 8, 2008
10:56 PM
Hey hey.... Sad day i feel so depressed and my foot is sore...
Stupid fren sammmiiee went to drag me arnd singapore.... We went to marine parade.... supposedly to buy stuff but found that ALL the shops were closed... Then she draged me to Tampiness.... also all closed wtf.. Then bugis omg.... I went there eat sakae and now i am sick wid food poisoning.. screwed !
expressing the emptiness inside me..
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
10:42 AM
Haiz... just woke up and remembered my outburst and my friends last night.. I feel so bad sia... But it was like pissing me off .. Anyway today suppose to go marine parade (YATA) but then my friends cancelled to go to pool. Damnit la my world is so screwed.. So many problems. I can't wait to go jc and forget about all of them!
Somemore my Saturday is screwed. My friends want to go out and have lunch then go my friends house omg? What an odd birthday... Go to someone elses house... Haiz... And i invited Willie and Greg and they are like o.o... They prolly think i am a loner and they are my only friends... Fuck la how screwed up is this..
Wah sian just got back damn tired sia.... Today CNY concert damn boring.. zz
And now my damn tag box spoil zz... haiz could the day get any worse ? Anyway cheers to everyone who is having a nice day except me... Sux. Utterly emo-ed n depressed.
On the plus side i love the wallet my sister bought me !! And my daddy got me a new watch :D!!
expressing the emptiness inside me..
6:15 AM
OOps willie's right for once in his life...
Team 1 : Willie, Chor , +2 others (hopefully me!) (Currently me sai n k mah fighting)
Team 2: Justin Jerome Jarvis Anth Wee
Team 3 : Unknown haha
Anywayz... off to school no sianz.. and since kmah most prolly will partner chor that means me n sai fighting to get in to team 1. Argh pressue. But nvm must overcome mental O.O
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Monday, February 4, 2008
7:58 PM
Oh gosh i might have to bowl with rubber for 'b' div! Damn... Someone Save me :( I feel so sad now... Sigh who is going to be my doubles? I wish this emptiness inside me would be filled. But i have nobody to talk with.. console myself ..
OMG i am supposedly fighting for team 2 with K mah Sai Mun And GERALD?! That means who is in.. I dont wanna partner rubber !! :(. SAve me !.
Also Premonitions for team 1 : Justin Lim, Jarvis Lim , Jerome Li, Anthony Wee Also Premonitions for team 2: Willie Quek, Loke chor + 2 others (oh no).
Oh gosh so many of my friends having problems.... Makes all of mine seem so irrelevant. Sigh.. and also i found a friend in a very unlikely place haha. Cheers to Anthony Wee my newest friend. Well actually friend before but nvm !
Oh man Adam and Anthony trying to fail my friend test... emo sia... And trying to get 100% for my friend test... zz
expressing the emptiness inside me..
2:51 PM
Nothing much happened today... i am just a little sick :( I missed school and training... Also i emoing... gf-less... sighz.
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11:48 AM
Apologist to dear Elaina. People please dont black list her she really helped me alot. What a sweetheart right? Anywayz Thanks alot Elaina ! I really owe u 1!! :D
ANTHONY WEE KEEPS BOTHERING ME TO SPREAD MY SECRET EVERYONE PLEASE BLACKLIST HIM !! HE WILL SPREAD MY SECRET OMG CANDICE, JESSIE, SAPP AND SAM ARE BEING EVIL ALSO!! TRYING TO SQUEEZE IT OUT OF ME !! SO MEAN
expressing the emptiness inside me..
6:15 PM
Nothing much happened today.. ah well.. EXCEPT i just started my blog Hurray! Depress for me and u will gain in life. I love the fact that i can freely express my thoughts here..
I have a secret. Nobody will ever know.. I love someone but i will never reveal her name. I wonder if she knows or if she just doesnt want to talk to me really.. She is so beautiful. I wonder if she will ever notice what is right in front of her.
P.S : On a completely unrelated note here is a funny conversation from tuition today:
Irmi: Your maid commited suicide. Haha Tuition teacher: Omgosh dont be so mean la. (Tuition teacher goes to see maid.. i wonder why..) Irmiliah: Omg she commited suicide because she forgot to stir my RIBENNA! (Extreme laughter from all) (last for 5 minutes..)
Another thing weird: My happiness today is a revulsion.. XOXO. Me
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6:14 PM
Omg Elaina hacked into my blogspot! She really has no life. Never Mind i shall ignore her past mental breakdown.
xoxo, Me
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11:31 AM
like omgzxzxz.
adnaan made me change his really cute gay bunny template to like this eeeeeeeeeeemo one.
like ewwwwwwwwness
xoxo,
anonymous
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11:14 AM
HELLO. its anonymous here:D adnaaan is totally clueless on htmls, templates and such and he wants to put a really gay bunny on his blogspot. so well, i guess i'll just let him be:D
but since he needs at least ONE post to get his blog towork, here i am,
~ TRUE FRIEND.
