Total Eclipse of the Heart;

Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart
She doesnt notice me..
Nor does she want to come close..
She doesnt want to know me in part
A Total eclipse of the heart
I am always in the dark..
I hope i can find love again..
Because sooner or later i may depart
Due to a Total eclipse of the heart

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My name is Adnaan or AKA Boss Man.

I am from Anglo-Chinese School(Independent) class of 4.3 AKA The retarded and best class of Sec 4 !!

My address is: You don't need to know because i am scared of death and stalkers.

Also, I like GIRLS not GUYS please be aware of it. OmgWtfBbQ

I am a SERIAL KILLER when i have my straw hat on. OmgWtfBbQ

∑ ♥ DESIRES

~~Desire #1 Good Friends.~~

Desire #2 Be a godly bowler.

Desire #3 For whoever is reading this to have a good life.

~~Desire #4 A nice birthday.~~

Desire #5 Fall sick and miss school.

~~Desire #6 An I-touch.~~

Desire #7 Getting good marks.

Desire #8 Just being liked for who I am.

~~Desire #9 Having at least one best friend.~~

JOS ♥♥♥

Desire #10 Going on with life without suicide.

Desire #11 Desperate need of CHEM ~~help~~ TUTOLAGE.

♀ Desire #8 For you to do this TEST ~ TRUE FRIEND.

Simon, Joshua, Jess, Sam 100%!.

Marissa, Max, Adam good friends :D.

Candice, Peter, Julie , Joyce 73% yay :D.

My Sister AKA DEMON, Amelia Low, Woon siong 67%, Marc ,Rubber 60% onli?.

ANTHONY LOW 13% wtf?.

Dislikes

In a depressed state u find u dislike all..

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♂ Anthony Wee.
♂ Brandon Ang.
♀ Candice Choo♥ (helped me).
♀ Cameron Lynn(helped me).
♀ Cheryl.
♀ Elaina♥ (helped me).
♂ Gregory.
♂Harris.
♂Isaac.
♀Jermaine.
♂ Kenneth.
♀ Kat~.
♀ Kathy.
♂ Lester.
♀ Marissa.
♂ Max.
♂ Marc Wee(Promoted).
♂ Sai Mun.
Sister Aka Demon.
♂Willie.
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♀Vanessa.
♂Ivan.
♂Joshua.
♂Peter.
♀Jessica.
♀Erliana.
♀Sapphrine.
♂/♀ Sam (Lolz).
♀Tera.
♀Amelia.
♀Joyce.
♂Woonie.
♂Anthony Low.

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Extras;

~~Tuesday, March 18, 2008~~

4:06 PM

Alright I have made the impromptu decision to start typing good English because it seems to be affecting my skill(s) at writing reports. I have therefore decided to turn over a new leaf(<-- note the good use of synonyms, if thats what it's called) and just get on with this.

Now i am sitting very lonely in a room with no window's or door's. Is it because i have shut myself away of the world? Or is it because i have been shunned by those around me? I woke up today in my room asking myself these questions of which i have no answer. The perplexities of life is what gives us challenges but why do i feel so dismayed when one is portrayed in front of me? Is it because i lack the capacity to follow through with my desires? Or is it because i have nobody there to be with me.

Now i wonder again to myself. Am i truly happy... to be alone? I realize now that i don't have that many close friends and day by day i seem to be losing them as if it was a race to see who could stay my friend the longest(I just made this up) and stay the truest. Also realizing i actually don't have that many friends. I am just alone in this vast world which intimidates me every time i try to take a step outside my comfort. Is it truly worth it to try? Even when you don't succeed and just fall to the ground?

I always wonder about these thing; true or false. Just like a simple kiss, i have been unable to preserve my lust. I always crave for something more when i already have what i need. Am i being selfish? Or am i being myself? Nobody truly knows who I am inside( look at the tags so few...), beneath my shallow aesthetic outlook.

It is like being washed away to a distant land, where nobody can see me and where i can see no one. I am alone on this trip because i have left what i had for something new. Only to realize that i wished to be back home. Is it truly well of me to see the world as such? Unforgiving; am I not the one who so blatantly chose this destiny where there is no goal? How i wish upon a star (Irony) for something to give me hope or for someone to give me a new beginning; where i can start anew.

Just because i am always so happy and trying my best to help people out, does not mean that i am unfeeling. I have feelings but they are never important enough. Is this why i have chosen this road? To nowhere. How it is a joy to have friends who truly care for you, of which i am blessed with but have taken for granted. And now at this phase of my life, i try my best to thrive on but i am losing hope in all. I have been so foolish all this time, looking towards a future that was not only never there but also, it disguised me from the world as one of them. How i wonder if i can be redeemed, to be forgiven, and to be taken back into the lives of others as what was originally in visioned.

How i long for the impossible,
How i fear for the rain,
How i cry every night,
How i feel, full of fright.

How i see nothing but an empty space,
How i look like a disgrace,
How i discern all sensibility,
How i falter from the probability.

How i am is who i am,
How i think when in a jam,
How i propose to speak,
How i judge the weak.

How i have fallen into this land,
How i made us disband,
How i moan when alone,
How i react when on the phone.

How i survive in this place,
How i am in such a space,
How i believed in my destiny,
How i back stabbed others, melancholy.

How i spread my arms out,
How i ignored you oh so stout,
How i arrogantly walked away,
How i forgot u, made u dismay.

How i leaned on your shoulder,
How i bothered you like a boulder,
How i am such a weight,
How i deserve to be fish bait.

How i do not deserve to live,
How i manage to harm your sieve,
How i burned you from my life,
How i wish i hadn't been in such a strife.

How i die on that day,
How i will see your face, no way,
How i leave this world untouched,
How i would have done nothing such dutch.

In the end everything and everyone will just leave me; I have nothing to offer them and all i have done is caused them distress. How i am such a foolish creature to have thought myself one of them, how unworthy of me to be a friend. I know that one day all will be lost because of this journey i have taken, my destiny is sealed. One day soon i will just end up hurting everyone around me, nobody can love me. For who could love such a creature, Beauty and the Beast is just another fairy tale.

In no world is happiness that easy to find, especially more difficult to those around me. I was born to love but not to be loved. I never show my love or care this is the cause of my despair, I was such a coward all this time, everyone would have just run away. How i long to be finally loved, how i wish this dream was a reality.

It does not matter where i walk anymore, because i know i have no new beginning in the end. No matter where i turn to it will only come back to haunt me, how i have mistreated everyone, how i lack the capacity to befriend. The beginning is in fact only possible if there is an end. I am the end.

expressing the emptiness inside me..