Wednesday, April 30, 2008

So hear i am sitting so lonely at home, starring at my offending hand which is trying to kill me. (Oh gosh) So there is no more time for me to understand this cruel world who keeps tormenting me so... Therefore, I decided to just live with it and look at as positive as i can possibly can.

Alright, so update on my exams first. Well all the papers so far were really tough. Especially physics and Chemistry practical. Oh gosh, double titration's.. It almost caused me to faint (Weak willed?). Well that's beside the point. At least Social Studies was not that bad, rather easy actually. Although the SBQ required some time to understand fully, quite odd indeed.

So, the reason i haven not blogged in so long... Is because of exam, sigh. I feel really bad blogging now.. But hey tomorrow is labor day so (: I think one post wont hurt. I just really need to blog... One, because its a part of me. Two, "someone" keeps pestering me to update... Geez. Relax (:

Alright; events that have happened BEFORE exams, the oh so patronizing exams...

Well first of.. I am really missing my best friend Joselyn Hoi.. ): Been in London for soo long.. Haiz. Well i guess i'll get to see her soon so i should not be so sad. Loves.

Ok also, like went out with K mah to like Marine parade for fun haha! But my mum burst my bubble because she told me to be back hoe by 6 30 when it was already 5 + Omg.. So in the end i could not go to his house.. BOOO Ah well. We ate at pasta mania quite interesting actually XD.

So last week i went to like brass basah with Tess and we were like stonning for soo long.. It was kinda funny but very annoying. My exams woman! And you make me stone there tsk tsk...

Ok so now the bizzare part of everything that has happened to me. Right now i am kind of confused because i no longer understand the fine line between genius and nerd. Alot of people have been saying i am SOOO smart because i take triple science and Double maths so I am like... eer so ? But i dont know anymore. They all look at me like i am going to get really awesome results... But by the looks of it, I highly doubt so. Seeing as how i can possibly fail English and Malay, the two easiest subjects in the world.. I think i would die of embarrassment when everyone looks at my offending paper.

Ok and also, I have been having like weird thoughts lately... About someone who is my friend. I don't know if its a fantasized crush or just an annoyance that has emerged as a result of jealousy or something. Maybe i just need soo much attention... Thats what i always do anyway... Become emo and bother people because they try to comfort me but I am always so stubborn... Attention seeker ?

Haiz.. Now i just need to wonder to myself 1 thing... Do i like her or what? Sometimes i don't even know if i know this person but i feel like it's her... Although when your in deep thought (dreaming) you sometimes don't know who it is your dreaming about... but you know it's a friend. Oh well i guess i'll only know when i sum up the courage to ask. She probably doesn't feel the same but it can't hurt to try (:

Ok lastly... American Idol is so MEAN. They kicked out my favourite last week... Those bastards... Carly! We'll miss you so. Jason OMGWTFBBQ bb.

expressing the emptiness inside me..